"I"

I am a sun soaked body with my arms stretched out.

I am a pathetic writer, a super carrot eater.
No rain, no wind, no sun,
Nor summer, or winter or autumn or spring.
Is it what they called no man's land,
and am I here to stay?
I am but a membrane and stretched over the mouth of a drum.
I am not a butterfly rather a crow, most likely an ant.
I am not grammar but parole for sure.
I have a brain of cauliflower and pumpkin,
I have limbs of melted rexine.
I write poetry like Jimmy Porter,
but i think i replicate Wordsworth in his solitary reaper.
Not flesh and blood but thermocol and pastry,
I haven't painted my intestines yet but i have eaten my lunch.
I am not a question, no mystery no illusive nymph.
I am however that answer which leads to no end.
Two feet i have and i can see them through my finger nails,
those feet will walk the miles ahead and the miles that i am already at.
I am but a thought who likes to think she is a human being,
delirious amongst others who will one day realise that teddy bears make up the real world.

Wooohooohahhahahahhaaa

Did you see Izzie's face? Oh my God, that smile was inexplicable! hahahaa....Alex is the sweetest jerk ever. I love happy endings! Dunno why this made me happy, considering my hours of hard work on my pasta went down the drain because of the bad cheese, my sister sounded sad on phone but now i cant stop smiling even though Mr. Eric Clapton is brooding in the background.
Now I know why i am single....hahahaa...no one is ever good enough, no one can ever please me. hahaha. I guess I am the biggest narcissistic asshole....i should stop calling other people that. Hahhaa...this is really funny. I suddenly realise watching some arbit fictional people kiss, that i am meant to be single. I should stop obsessing over perfection. Why do people piss me off so easily? Why am i so intolerant? hahha...i don't know. And for the sake of every sane man's good health i am glad I a single..woooohoooo......yay! Cheers so single hood! hahaha...does it sound like sour grapes....a aaa....i think not, coz i so gotten over Utopia. I mean dude...Utopia is a book, by Thomas Moore.....its fiction. And anyway Sanjh and I both agree that if we were to do it we could sleep with women. Hahhaa....i cant believe me......from silly to sillier or maybe smarter who the hell knows....who the hell cares. Cheers to me....wooohooo.....Izzie...Alex i love u...hhahaa..so fun!
Cheers to epiphany!!!
Woooohoooo........nighty night!

Closure

All of yesterday i tried to sign into blogspot but it was all in vain.
I finally managed to do it now.
So it was Christmas yesterday and i had my little party. I believe i ve never blogged like this on yellowdictionary before. Wow, it sort of freaks me!
I have done so much for this blog. I even changed its main source of identity...its name.
But that's not really its main source of identity.....this reminds me of Derrida.
Lord what a fucked up idiot, and he really knows how to fuck my happiness.
My lit theory paper was an absolute disaster....all that sense of superiority went down the drain!
Yeah, so i was saying that i changed the name of my blog, the address....but still the past seems to haunt me like anything.
More because of the blog entries. I mean the old one....the ones i posted when it was called ipegasus. I hate those old post, each and everyone from the bottom of my heart. So much, that i thought id delete this blog and start afresh. But am quite selfish i feel, i dun seem to be able let go of my work. And thats how am goin to treat them....as work.
I am the most horrid person in this world i know, and people might think me a bitch but i dunt care no more. And one thing; I hate to repent.....I never want to repent. I dont regret anything, ANYTHING at all. And i seriously think i needed to write this to get it out of my system.
For now i start afresh. I dont have anything to look back to....good, bad i dunt care...all i have is the present and the future. I dont want anyone to mess with me and i dont want anyone to even try and gimme any shit. Coz am not gonna take it, rather i'll break his face.
Seriously i am goin to be violent. Whoever tries to bring me any anxiety or the slightest cause of irritation i'll break the face of that person i swear. I have decided to not let any piece of shit bother me in any little way. So all you bastards who tried to pull me down, cause any sort of physical, psychological harm.....go burn in hell i dont care. You dont haunt me anymore. All those rotting souls who are sooo screwd up themselves that you try to screw up other people....u will face the music sometime. Am not a calvinist and i am highly religious. I believe you'll all pay for your sins. So all those who made me feel sick, tormented and diseased, let me tell you....you are outta my life...i have ripped off that part from my life. I know that i was stupid to let you rotten people affect me coz you are the most filthy people in this world and letting you affect me would succeed your mission. So i fail you now....you are out out outta my life. You try to mess with me again and i'll fuck your happiness.

This is the last time i am talking about this and henceforth this shall never be brought up in any way in my life...not even by me. Its over.

p.s- for all you overly emotional ppl who think they are the only burdened soul on this earth, dunt bother to strain ur already over strained senti-meter......this is not about you. N still outa habit if u wanna think that its bout u, feel sad, broken and all that u always tend to feel and fancy to feel, then go ahead feel more burdened and fucked.

I think i need to borrow Aro's "I hate everybody" socks!!!!